where are you when i need you the most? when i've had the worst day ever and i need to pour my feelings out? do you hear me? do you listen to me? i need you by my side and i need a big hug from you telling me i am okay and that you'll always be there. but you're not here. :'( and this is when i need you most. i am so worried and i dunno who to turn to and i just wish things could get better. i've been told over and over it will,but somehow i can't bring myself around to believe that. it isn't the end of the world. but it sure feels like it.



i wish someone understands how it feels like, i feel like shit and i feel like i've let everyone down. i'm truly sorry. maybe, i am just not very wise, i don't know. i had hopes and dreams of course. just like everyone else. somehow i feel like,there's no point believing i can achieve anything in life. most of you pretend like you understand, but you don't! you're not me! you pretend to care,but you sure as hell don't,because you are doing great so why do you care bout what's gonna happen to me? you only care about yourself and your life and your story. but really, i don't blame you. sigh. :(


In my deepest despair will you still care? will you be there?
In my violence,in my turbulence,through my fear and my confessions
In my anguish and my pain,through my joy and my sorrow.