i've never felt so alone in my life. or lonely. its something that i am not used to. i've never felt this before,because whatever happens someone is still there for me. always. maybe most thinks i am being so dramatic, but i really feel this way. when i get to work,sometimes i stand there like i am the wallpaper. and truthfully,i don't even fit in near it. nobody talks to me, and i don't talk to them,unless i have a question. then when i finally made friends, look forward to going to work, she is shifted somewhere else. give me another reason not to dread work? i dread working with my supervisor. well everyone says she's very fun to work with. is she? she scares the crap out of me. and when i forget how to do the stuff or be slow at it, she practically scowls at me. or maybe, i just don't know her yet. i just feel sad. i really do. :(

mum is being nice, saying nice things to me. like this is all experience i have to endure. and Jeny keeps reminding me i have to be strong. I know this is for my own good, but, i hate working. screw the freaking money lah. i'd rather sit in class, take out my math book and do calculation rather than do retail sales and meet awful customers with bo, attitude problems, hearing problems, and whoever says 'customer is always right' is a moronic fool. yeah, i hate working. loathe it. dread it. sadly, i need to live with it. 3 months more. just 3 months. =/