all those years when you were there for me, i never did thank you enough did i? because i express my gratitude through my actions. because i wanted to share my teenage years with my friends and you were one of the special ones, because i knew you'd be there to save me, no matter what. but... things don't always go as we plan & when we plan, things always changes. and nobody can stop changes. i still cannot find an explanation for this drastic change. its like, you're no longer you anymore. where have you hide yourself? where was that jovial person? where was that person who'd talk to me till the wee hours of the morning? where was the person who'd wipe my tears and share secrets with me? like how i'll share my thought,feelings,secrets,days with? doesn't our friendship matters to you? we went wayyyyyy back. didn't you remember? i would always have been there if you needed me. always will be there. but... you just pushed me aside. like i didn't matter to you anymore,like, i am merely nothing. like i am of no use. why? i miss you. i miss my friend, my friend that has been with me through out my secondary years, my friend whom listens to all my cries,my friend who never stop believing in true love..no matter what happened. is this what love does? it shuts your eyes and your heart for others but only saves it for your lover? if this is what love do, then i do not want it. i do not want to leave the people i love for the one person who loves me. i dunno why, but my mind will randomly wandered to you. thoughts of you. my care and concern were just ignored... am i that unimportant to you right now? i only want the best for you. i wouldn't want anything bad to befall you. like how you didn't want anything to befall me, once upon a time. i want us to strive together, i want us to prove to others and ourself that we are capable of all this. but... it seems like i have to go on with this journey myself.. without you. i miss you so much. i just want things to go back to how it used to be..but i know that is not possible. sigh.