just because i failed, doesn't mean it'd happen again. after all the filthy words you spat at me, and when i said , i can bloody make it this time, all you can do is flare up and asked, why the fuck was i so confident? not only that, you can't even count how many months away was my exams. that's how uninform you were? don't pretend you know how i'm living my life just because we're on the same damn roof. whatever i do is just wrong in your eyes. must i show you when i study? must i tell you? i don't see a reason why i should, esp with you being such an asshole. and to rub it in, you just had to say, "why does anybody thinks she can make it? she shouldn't be given a chance to do her o's again. i've told her to study since she was in sec 1. but look at her. she was born stupid." i'm so damn sick and tired of listening to the same damn thing for all my life. that i could never make it in life. y'know it hurts? you think i just close my ears, pretend nothing happened and carry on like there was no problem? well you're wrong. whatever you say, matters to me. and saying that, is just horrendous. you said the same damn thing bout my n's right? nobody thought i could make it, even you, people i rely on. but when i did it, all you can fucked up say is, "i know you can do it." whatever happened to, "you are born stupid" ? and other than that, you just have to bring up the money issue. always been about money to you. just cuz i'm not having big bucks in my pocket, y'think i'm useless? if i had money, would you treat me that way? i doubt so. money surely makes the world go round ain't it? stop asking me to pay back my debts for my frigging education. shouldn't you pay? isn't it awful how you're not paying for my fees, yet, you're asking me to pay my debt? y'know what? you can say whatever you want. because the only stupid one is you. not me.