i feel so zombified. so emotional, so,so, fragile. every little things makes me feel so upset and i feel so much more depressed. i wonder why am i so emotional. i, myself was beggin god, wishing o's would just end and we can get done and over with it, but now, now, its all different, i don't want it to pass, i just wanna freeze for a while longer, i don't mind them shortening our holidays, why can't o's be on november, so we won't have to graduate now! it hurts so much inside and i feel like not talking to anyone, i just wanna be an anti-social bitch and just mingle with my classmates and no one else, pretty retarded really, i dunno why i feel this way. this happened, last year, but last year i weren't say veryyyy close with everyone. yes i cried when i didnt see some of my friends make it, yes i cried when n's finish. but i was able to take o's, and meet the same old people again, back then i was wishing it will all be over, but in the process, i got closer to my classmates, and we were so comfortable with each other's presence. i know i know, i am so emotional, but first time in my life, i am glad i'm a singaporean, if i weren't,i wouldnt met such amazing classmates. :) i'd willingly NOT migrate to another country just to have each of us back,i really am not ready for new school, new bunch of friends and shit. i don't want! damnit, which part of that is hard to understand!!!!!

urgh, we've got just a few more weeks and we're officially out of school, wait, about a month to finish o's. i hate it, when time moves slow we want it to end fast, when its fast, we want it to move slow! no wonder god is confused! we're so fickled minded! now, i want time to move slow and than it doesnt have to move anymore, is that possible? i wonder, 5 years from now, will y'all still remember me? will we still laugh at our own stupid jokes? will we still piss each other up and laugh our asses off later? will we still call up and talk rubbish? will we still hang out? will we still wipe each other's tears and hug one another? will we still try to cheer each other? will we still be comfortable among us? will things change? will it? my heart feels heavy and i just feel so upset about this, i know we will all have to move on, cuz thats just how life works, as much as i hate to say it, all good things come to an end. so lets just treasure this last moment we have in peirce alright. i keep telling myself over and over again its not goodbye, but seriously,after school, we won't be in the same class anymore, won't see each other's ugly faces in the morning anymore, no more running down to canteen to eat like babi in recess, no more pulling my hair ( thank god about that!) no more studying together, no more bio lessons on saturday, no more talking shit in history class, no more making reserved teachers cry, no more gossiping bout the teachers, no more. who will wipe my tears when i cry after this? who will cheer me up? who will hug me tight?

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end.