okay, i am like doing nothing right now. but at least i can use the computerrr. (: i met my dearest nephew yesterday, baby boy's growing up fast. by the time i see him again, which would be, during hari raya, he's gonna be a fat,chubby,cuddly baby. i can't wait! haha. he's just uber cute. period.

so anyways, i am realllllllly bored. so imma blog. i watched sky of love yesterday. its soooooo touching. the movies is like 2 hours long?!!?!?!?!?! its 129 mins. but its worth watching. i am thinking on watching it yet again. its just so nice to watch. pretty retarded since i sat on th couch, crying my heart out, " please don't die." and then, "oh nooooooo. he's gonna die!!!!!!" yeah, so hiro died in the end. everyone dies, but if all the people i love die, i'd break down too. & its just, so,so, sad. then i watched "life support". about hiv. life is so fragile, you know. so make full use of it. okay, stop it.

& did i say, i totally screwed up my mid years. was kinda expected, but didn't really thought i'd fail 4 subjects. -.- school's shit dawggg. okay, so its partly my fault. last minute study really don't help,i dunno how many times this has to happen until i really learn my lesson. promised mich will start studying like this week? or soon? (: ok. shit. i should really stop slacking. damnit. i really have to excelllllllllll, prelims in 3 months. imma turn 17 soon. omg. i am so not ready. if i say i wanna stay 16 forever, kinda childish right? yeah i know. but growing up scares me. part of me want to stay a child for as long as i can, but the other part of me, just couldn't wait to grow up, to see what life has in store for me. i am scared of leaving my friends, i am kinda scared of changes, do i sound stupid saying that? or is everyone completely normal with changes? i bet not everyone is comfortable with changes, people take time to get used to new things right? right. i guess, my friends have been a part of my life, and, its weird right? to just go to school and not see them? yeah, i think its really weird. so there goes. the story of my life. the girl who's afraid to grow up. well, we'll see how it goes. but for now, i'll cherish & appreciate everything thats gonna happen. be it good or bad, because everything happens for a reason yeah?

okay, i think i;ve written quite some lame shit. & imma stop. have a great holidays. ( i am not having any fun. ): )

oh yeah, i talked with my sister. and she's been through exactly what i'm going through. so she can't go out often too.but she could at least help me outttttt! another reason on why i wanna grow up. i want freedom ( who doesnt?) & i want to explore. i don't wanna stay here. its soooooooo mundane! and normal, and just so, singapore! sigh. i wanna go on a holiday! ):

okay. byebye.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SUHANAH! :D