i feel... hyper! :D

& it feels stress-free! haha. i love it when i feel like i am alone i always have a psycho
with me. heehehehhe. anyways. soooooooooo many things happen. & its not bad at all.
i am still sick but, i am getting better. i read books, & more books. books makes me
happy. lol. but my english is just not improving! any help?!
& i think jodi picoult books are amazing! she has the same style for the 2 books that was
from her. she's just damn good. but i preferred "nineteen minutes". that book is a
must read! currently, james patterson is my favourite. he has soooooooo many best selling
novels! & all his books are so.. hard to put down! haha. so, go read. esp books from sarah
dessen. she's beyond brilliant ; i swear. okay. anyways, enough about books.

everything is going on fine i guess. just somedays i feel, left out/lonely/alone/ignored
& i just feel like i am.. not a great person to be around anymore. & i dunno how i am suppose
to react. just maybe i am too sensitive. i just, am like that maybe. or maybe, i just.
am not comfortable with the current position i am at. somehow, i feel like i am acting
like an adult, but sometimes i feel like a kid. confused, hurt.. & i just don't like it.
& then i feel like, there's no one to talk to. i dunno why i feel this way. because i know there
is a few people whom i can talk to. but maybe at the time when i need them, they're just not
there. its amazing how true, you don't have to stick to tittles to be good friends with people.
you don't have to tell the whole world you guys are best friends. it'll just show. js told me that,
a few years back. but i never realised it. until now. there are a lot of things that i realised
now. i think more now. i just, can't seem to communicate with people sometimes? but,
yes, once i start i won't stop. like thats not normal. haha. but yeah. you can have friends
whom is the best you can get, & the tittle is nothing.

& was watching tyra today. I HATE MEN. i hate them! but, i am straight. well anyways,
i realised. guys are just jerk. i have a perfect example but this is about, assholes. GRRRR. i
am so pissed when i think about it. those girls are pretty but they got cheated. guys
are so bloody stupid. they only think with their bloody dick. i am not being sex-ist or
anything, but, most guys do not just think with their brains. i don't get it? i mean, why won't
you think of the consequences? i mean, girls, ugly/pretty/fat/skinny/tall/short/big boobs/
small boobs/big butt/small butt, we are girls.& we have feelings. everyone has got feelings but, i think you should respect a girl. everyone deserve to be respected. damn it. guys. i hate guys.
jerks.

& i should study hard & get out of singapore. i can do it! lols. okay. i sound so weird.
& oh yeah, i found this blog. & she is an amazing person. i just. feel like she's so.. nice.
i like to read her blog. because, she makes me feel better. its amazing how some random
people makes you feel better? yeah. btw, treat someone the way they should be treated,
before its too late.. before. he/she leaves you forever. with no chance to say sorry.
thus i will apologise if i have been a bitch to anyone. i will try to be a better person,
somehow.

lastly. i feel, good. i love blogs. i can just pour everything out. & i don't wanna grow
old, get married. get kids! & have bigger belly than i have now. i don't wanna be a housewife
& i DO NOT want to be making phonecalls to my girlfriends & talk about fish & markets!
"hello? so are you ready not? lets go. today all the fresh fishes coming in! must go early lah.
later expensive cannot pay lah. aiyoh you very troublesome leh. faster!" omg. i don't
wanna be those VERY singlish old woman. or, to call and GOSSIP like makcik kepo. i mean.
we gossip now. BUT. its different when you gossip about your block people. like " that girl there!
yeah! she got pregnant! recently got married! ya lah! the tummy so big already! aiyoh. * shakes head*" OMG. i don't wanna be married! ITS SCARY! hahaha. & yes. straight face. burp.
*inside joke* ily gf. (:

GOOD NIGHT ALL.

prince charming is coming, just not now ; i am over it. trust me. (: