i hate doing f&n really. i am just so lethargic. i always think
that saturdays & sundays are just sit around,do nothing & pigging out day.
but i have so many things to do, i have to change my perspective.
i still hate physics because i really suck in it. i suck in science. i hate science.
so anyways, today i had religious class, as usual. today was actually pretty
good. i was late & i met the teacher who lived near me. her daughter, who's in my class
and her was late too,so we took cab. i had a free ride & i feel so paiseh. :/
so, today most of the teachers was nice. (: & i love my friends there. (:
went home and had a veryyyyyyy nice person to pei me. lols. i reached home, do
nothing & watched tv. wanted to watch the whole season of harry potter, but i
watched the fifth one as my sister insisted to. then i fell asleep. woke up &
texted genie. we had a conversation that i had to blog about.

so we were talking bout normal stuff. blah blah blah. when i suddenly realised.
we always wished that the person we like, will like us back. thats just normal.
but we are also so busy with ourselves. if we wishes for them to like us, wouldnt
they wish for the same thing for the person they love too? then if all the wishes
come true, it'd be a big big mess. so overall point of view, life is still unfair. sometimes
i wish it'd be easy to like someone, but nothing ever is easy. the conversation with
genie really opened up my mind. love can never be forced. if he doesn't like you then,
you can't do anything. its like you like a person & he doesnt like you & you still wanna
wait for him then come another person demanding your love for them. but you simply can't
right? because you wanna give your love for someone who doesnt want you. life is
so ridiculous. it still hurts to know that he likes her. it hurts to lie to yourself, but you
have no choice right? you don't wanna get hurt. love & life is so complicated. i don't
wanna be involve.

i cannot stop the love you have for her, because when i think anout it again,
i cannot stop the love i have for you. it hurts to accept the truth.
i wish to be able to be with you, to spend my days with you, to share all
my joy & my pain with you, but you wanna spend all your time with her.
i don't know what i can do, to make it stop. but i am still willing to try. i wish
you all the best with her, because i know you & me is impossible.
no matter how much i love you, how much you mean to me, its all my fantasy.
cuz baby, she's all that matters.