i cant believe it. thats it? the end. no more school. no more classes. no more 4a2.
i still have my entryproof in my bag which i didnt umpack. still have my study timetable
stuck on my wall, still have my socks in my school shoe. still thinking that i have to wake up
at 5.30 tomorrow morning for school. but then, i have no reason to come to school
except for the fact that i'm taking mt o's but, yeah. without my classmates. when i took my last
paper on friday, i just felt im really gonna miss the atmoshphere, im gonna miss everything here. when the paper start, i wanted it to end so badly. but when the last minute came, i prayed
that i could just stop time, i could rewind. get closer to my classmates, study harder, pay
more attention, appreciate more things around me, but i guess thats it. once its gone, dont
regret it because you know its not coming back.

after f&n on friday, we went for dinner. we is felicia ong, felicia yiap, ruth, ling ling, lynette,
wenxiu, kahyi, ben, jonathan, whye keat, jessie, clement ( who left halfway.) , cheng heng, alex, miss wong ( who also left because she had a party) and me. it was so fun and yeah, very sad.
i am very very sorry that we had to look for places like everywhere in orchard. next time, i promise to place a reservations okay. (: im gonna miss everyone of you okay. really. we had dinner at pizzahut which was so yummy! hah. lets not make that our last dinner okay. hmm.
after dinner me, keat and johnny went home together. waited for cab for like forever. damn. how far did our imagination go yeah? i would love to stay together after your ns okay both of you? and yeah i know you think its impossible, but i have a feeling if we do, well, just believe,
i think its possible. (: i promise to study hard with you guys if i can make it to sec 5. i kinda believe i can.

my holidays are gonna suck because i cannot work. i cannot go out. -.- i cannot use the house phone. cannot use computer for more than an hour and only once a week. cannot go gym.
well lets just say im treated like a prisoner. ): fuck my holidays. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

um, hari raya's in 5 days. CANT WAIT TO GET MONEY TO GO SHOPPING! :D
oh i wanna go out with amalina they all. lol. then yeah. time's flying so fast, hope its fast
enough to getting n level's result. and i dunno why i cant wait for raya and christmas. :D

jon, you have to fulfil your promise! :D keat, hurry come back from hong kong. :D
and yeah. thats all. i wanna watch tv, day dream, read storybook and also maybe study. LMAO.
since im like grounded till forever. ):

and you have such beautiful eyes that sparkles through the dark and never stops shining
when its dark. i dont care if it isnt blue or green because your tiny chinese eyes are really
mesmerising. you are the one that always blow me away, no matter what, and i can never stop
falling for you. i dont know if its the truth but what if i say that i truly love you? its just, you'll
never know, because i'm never an existence to you. i'd do all it takes for you to notice me just for
one day. i know i am not the girl of yout dreans, i can never be. she is everything that i can never be.
but somehow, my feelings for you grow stronger each time i try to stop falling for you.

i guess i could never have the chance to tell you how much you mean to me, how much i love you,
how much your presence brighten my life. i could never hold your hands and tell you that you're
prefect. i could never look you deep in the eye tell you what beautiful eyes you have. could never hug
you tight. could never kiss your lips and tell you that i've loved you, since forever.
i will never have that chance, and you know why? because i just not perfect enough for you.