so, today we celebrated my birthday in advance as i can't go out tomorrow, quite

sad actually but i had no choice. all of you, thank you so much for celebrating

with me. (:

at first i was really, how do i put it in words, i was really upset. and i didn't feel good. i really wanted to cancel but seriously lah, its not even worth it. in the end i went out with them. it was only me, jonathan, jessie, genie and sarah then when we were at amk hub we met shaa and yana. but they went off first saying we'll meet later at orchard. after we reached, we wanted to go to seould garden and decided its not worth it and i wasnt that starving. haha. so we went to swensens. and yes, the food was kinda awesome just that i wasnt really hungry. and let me warn you. DO NOT CRY WHILE YOU EAT BECAUSE I THINK IT HAS SIDE EFFECT. lol. i didnt even finished the spaghetti then i had stomachache. i thought i was gonna puke. and yes, i did. it was so gross! i couldnt't stop myself so i puke at swensens floor? LOL. i feel super bad lah. then i ran all the way to the toilet. thanks for pei-ing me sarah. and i choke the toilet's sink. i said like 3 sorry's to the person lah. i feel super bad. then after the puking incident, i stopped crying. i was terrified i might puke again. so yeah. then enaa, shaa and yana came to swensens right after the vomit thing. and wahlah, the atmoshere changed to a happy occasion instead of a weepy day. so yes, thanks to EVERYONE. especially jessie. thank you darling. the manager helped to take extra tables for us, thank you! haha. then i apologise to the guy whom wiped my vomit. and he was so nice lah. and i felt guilty and felt so touched at the same time, sorry yeah. then came the ice cream and i couldnt eat as i was so very afraid i might puke again, so yeah. i feed everyone. (: and that was when jessie gave me my birthday present. thank you so much. i really really love it. thank you so much, -jessie, jonathan and genie. THANKS! im gonna wear it everyday. heres's the picture. (:

yeah and so, after that we walked walked and then went to toysrus and when i was on the way home, jowell kissed me. HAHA. hes so cute lah. jessie i think i like your lil bro lah hor. haha. then yeah, well i kinda swore to myself to not cry be it because of that or because of being happy, but at the same time, i dont think i can, yeah so. lets try. and yes. today was awesome though im so sorry i couldnt stop crying all the way from school to orchard. sorry guys, i didnt mean to like spoil your day too. you were all so patient with me, i bet if it wasnt my birthday you all would have just walked off and left me. thus, thank you so very much. and yes. i should stop thinking bout him.

and oh yes. THIS IS SPECIALLY FOR LIM WEI KIAT. THANK YOU SO MUCH TO COME ALL THE WAY FROM BEDOK TO BEACH ROAD AND FROM BEACH ROAD TO MY HOUSE AND THEN ALL THE WAY BACK TO BEDOK. I COULDN'T THANK YOU ENOUGH AND IT WAS ONE OF THE MOST SWEETEST AND MEMORABLE THING I WILL EVER REMEMBER. THANK YOU FOR EVERY SINGLE THING. FOR THE LISTENING EAR, THE FRIENDSHIP AND ALSO THE PRESENT. I LOVE IT. THANK YOU HAO PENG YOU. (; I WOULD DO JUST THE SAME FOR YOU NO MATTER HOW YOU STOP ME. THANK YOU SO MUCH WEI KIAT. AND YES, I WILL NOT MISS THE NDP SHOW. ALL THE BEST AND ROCK ON! HAVE FUN! :D

and one more thing, you, i hope you realises how upset i am, i hope youre happy now? yeah. no matter how many suprises is in store, let me tell you this, those tears shed wouldnt come back. i dont understand it, why am i so fucking upset? i just couldnt stop feeling so god damn fucking sad. and i do not understand at all on why you could go for her birthday till let me see 1230 am and you couldnt even come to mine? which was only gonna take 4 hours of your 24 hours?

and i loathe the way you made me feel.