its been rather stress-free this week. which is perhaps bad? because
n levels in. 7 days. social studies and also english. but i admit, i am scared.
what if i can't make it to sec 5? this is really stressful, because i don't want to
go to ite. not that its bad or anything, its just, it hurts to not go to somewhere i
wanna go to. and most importantly, i do not want to part with my classmates.
and i don't even want to imagine the terrified faces on my parents. they've
already given up on me, why not prove them wrong once in their life. since
they're always saying how stupid i am, sometimes, i wonder, was i a mistake?

but anyhow, i will do my very best. this i promise, look at it this way, all the
wonderful things to do after n levels. (:
i've actually planned everything out, and if i didnt put in efforts in those papers,
not only will i face dissapointment, i will not feel good for 3 months, no matter how
many fun i'll have, those results, will still haunt me. i know i did badly for mt o's.
c5. i swear i didnt feel any guilt or dissapointment, maybe because i know that i've
got a second chance, but n levels? even if i do get a second chance, what's the point?
i dont have my friends by my side, its like studying in a very different enviroment. i want
to continue studying with them and i dont want even one person to be left out.
so, study hard, even if you know theres no hope, at least you know, you've studied. and
that'd make you feel so much better and who knows, there can be miracles when you
believe. to my class, my beautiful class. 4a2. (:

this post is for all of you. (:
lets do this together, lets help one another hand in hand. we've worked so hard
together, the haunted house, and also the class tee. and also the upcoming chalet.
lets do this together. and who knows, we'll all have another year together.
don't ever give up, because i havent lose hope, so you shouldn't too.
ALL THE BEST GUYS! :D

and also. happy birthday to amalina. (:
study hard sweetheart! <3