i feel quite good today. finally i am able to grin like i use to, laughed like i use to.
i feel much better, less depressed and my stomach is finally improving. 2 days
staright and it havent given me any problems.
today feels all dreamy? i went breakfast with my parents at 10.30. and i felt good.
i seriously dont know why but i feel so happy, i feel like all the burden's gone?
i got home and decided to call wei kiat. haha. the best advices always come from him,
how could i not believe his views? i will trust him till the day i die. if he needs time, and if thats
the best, then i shall wait. (:

my flu's getting much much better. i had to use more than 3 packets of tissue yesterday,
and didnt anyone mention HOW GOD DAMN ANNOYING flus can get? it just keeps dripping,
well not exactly drip, how mucus always wants to flow out. got morning flu but im okay now.
i need only 1 packet of tissue. haha. and yes, i am still smiling. i dont think i deserve this kind
of hapiness right now, seems wrong? but if it keeps my stomacache away, then yes, thank you very much. i still do feel like i've lost something, and i know i have. maybe not yet, maybe wont,
but i dont know. i do miss you, you know, and i am sorry. its really not easy to go on like this.
i talk about you without even realising it and i always have to bite my tounge to stop myself.
if its my fault, please tell me. shutting up only confuses me and makes me panic. but if time
is what you need then yes, time will tell then. just please, dont take too long would you, please.

and so, mugging is actually.. okay? it really gets your problem off your head for as long as you study. i havent mugged for let see.. 24 hours straight? maybe not, i've tried to remember ss notes since yesterday, i feel like i remember, but i feel like its not enough, so i wll have to remember the notes, word for word. LOL. this is seriously funny. i cant believe i am actually studying. i have never been prouder of myself. seriously! i seriously thank haziq for the short bio quizes, i still do hate all the enzyme craps though. but seems like i have no choice but i still have to remember. -.- jessie and genie is away on cruise and i know she's so missing me, and she knows im missing her too. :D STILL, NOT FREAKING FAIR. YOU'RE ON A GOD DAMN HOLIDAY,(for only 2 days, BUT STILL) WHILE IM DEPRESSED! lol, okay not so anymore. but still! lol. and oh yeah, zhi ying, do cheer up, we're trying it together right. (:

and yes, I SAW YOU ON TV LIM WEI KIAT. lmao. i saw your lanjiaobin. LMAO. and haziq said
lmao is miaomiao.-.- LOL. but still, yes i saw you, just like how i promised. funny. glad you had fun. and dont be sad, not all good things last forever. but i swear, some does. (: you know what i mean. okay. ive blogged enough for the day, im still happy. i still miss you, and i apologise if i had done anything wrong. stay healthy! and i totally love this song. (: though i think its quite long already. haha. and haziq, dont worry okay. she wouldn't be able to sue you, it just sound really stupid. relax. (:

good night all, though still very very early, but still, may you be bless with the most sweetest dreams. and happy belated birthday singapore. lmao. :D


i woked up with the most craziest dream.
i wished you were here right beside me because you were in the dream too.
i wanted to wake up with flowers all around me, it dont matter if it was
daisies, sunflowers or even roses, anyones will do.
i've promised i'd take the risk, and i still will.